my life , now

dear junnie ,
i'm crazily miss expressing everything in this blog ..
since there is not quite a huge number of people who know about this blog ..
hehehehe

so now , how am i ? i'm good ..
i managed to lose about 11 kg for your information !
hahahaha ..

during my practical , yeah i learnt a lot of things .. but hey , it is quite lots of things that already changed..
you see , i don't know what happen between me and baron anymore .. yeah he's kinda left me alone during my practical though .. i was about to leave him when i realize that i still love him ..
but ,
when i gave him a last chance , i don't seem that it will work .. he still stubborn , dont want to understand me and so on ..
what should i do junnie ??
from what i can see , there is no hope anymore if he keep on doing this ..
how to tell him ?
i hope he's understand ..
my love toward him is fading away since the day i started my day with the new thinking
"i don't need a man to guide me doing this , or doing that "
my life , my rules
why i must let outsiders to decide for my future huh ?
i hope he understand that things is difficult and complicated for me right now ..
the more you're pushing me , the more you hurt ..
i'm not the one who is hurting because i'm stick with my principle ...
take a note

dah berhabuk dah blog aku .. Heee
Dear junnie , mian .. too busy with my life ..
Emm .. having conflict with my feeling ..

aku dah berubah

ye aku dah berubah ... and so what kalau aku dah berubah .. aku happy .. aku dah tak sedih lagi .. orang lain ?? lantak pi diaorang la .. time dorang happy , ade dorang pikir pasal aku ?? ape ?? ingat korang je ke boleh selfish .. aku pon boleh maaa .. jangan tanya kenapa aku berubah ,.. tanya kenapa kau tak ley berubah .. itu poersoalannnya .. i am not your toy anymore .. tolong lah paham .. biarlah orang nak cakap ape .. aku happy dengan diri aku sekarang sebab i don't feel any pain anymore :D